The wrong one

Alright I kind of put myself in a predicament. Nothing serious, its just baffling that my eyes weren't open to this conclusion before. I can't believe I didn't see this before. I guess because my eyes were covered with veils. Damn I wish I can go into further detail. All I can say is that I'm conflicted. Ok the best way I can explain it is, I went after the wrong girl and now that i realized the woman I should've gone after, it would cause too much controversy if I tried to get with her, if not controversy then problems and much unnecessary frustration. Don't know what to do......Damn....

Cold Part 1.

Well so far this year is going pretty well. Been working at my job for the past month and 11 days and gotta say it isn't as bad as i thought it would be. I'm fitting in quite well. I wish things were as great on the home front. I wish things were back to normal. Well I guess it is true that change is constant. I actually have cable Internet and my house phone back after it was shut off on the third of January.. So far I learned quite a few things. number one, alot of people are two-faced. I never seen it so much before. But hey what else is new...School starts on Friday and I can't wait. Ever since last semester ended I felt good about myself. I averaged a 3.0 last semester. my best semester thus far. But I looked at my Book list and my gosh i wanna fucking cry. Yo like all my books are gonna cost close to 600 bucks. I have to save up mucho now. I guess that's the consequence of taking 5 classes. On the road to finding a woman worth trying to get with there is none as of now. Besides I don't think I would even have the time to..With work, school, and studying Then I would make an exception. Oh well no big deal. patience is the key. good things come to those who wait so I'm gonna do just that. School starts this Friday and looking forward to it. Last semester ended so well I'm more motivated to do even better and try to get my average even higher then before. I wonder what the semester will bring for me? I know it may not be much, but lately I been working out building my muscle and stuff. doing sit-ups, push-ups, pull-ups, etc. It feels good no lie. I feel a little difference in my arm strength. It hasn't completely changed don't get me wrong, but better. So I'm gonna do little by little everyday and when school comes back,
I plan to go to the Gym and use the treadmill 3 times a week. Of course the first week, it's going be hard. So I figure I do 10 minutes the first day. and try to beat the score every time. When I get good and able, I will try to accomplish 30 mins of cardio on the treadmill 3 times a week. I think it would be a good step to improving my body. I am in my happiest mood ever. I just feel so damn good. I don't know why I'm just feeling overwhelmed with positivity which I am not complaining about not one bit. I can't wait to see what happens.

2011: "Time For a Change" ?? Or is that just every new year's slogan?

Happy new Year to all. I hope everyone had an enjoyable new start to 2011. One thing that I find popular around every start of the new year is how people vow to change their outlook on life, "leave the bullshit behind", My personal favorite "Lose weight". But I find that many people don't live up to their New Years promise. I should know, because I'm one of those people. For the past 4 years or so I have vowed to lose weight and get in shape. Even though I did in fact go to the gym and exercise, I eventually would stop going and my laziness becomes my kryptonite. I did not vow to lose weight this year. This year my vow is to maintain my position at my new employment job and save up money for my well-being and economic security. I am not going to vow to go to the gym and lose weight and get in shape because simply I have made that same empty promise the past 4 years. This doesn't mean that I am abandoning the idea. I believe that I went to the gym not to satisfy myself but to live up to expectations of other people. I do not want to go to the gym to satisfy other people. That's not a reason a person should use to defend their purpose of losing weight or to go to the gym. So no one misunderstands my statement, I PLAN on going to the gym to workout and lose weight. When I am good and ready to join BALLYS or continue to use the gym facility at my school, I will. I will do it in my own time and at my own pace.
I know this is going to pop up soon or later so I'm going to address this now. At this point in time in my life, I am concerned with my own well being. I am currently single at this time and I can't complain. I am happy with the way things are going for me now. I am interested in one person in particular, but it doesn't seem to be going anywhere at the moment. I been single for about a year now and I can't lie I do get lonely. I wish I could share my happiness with a special someone. But I believe good things come to those who wait. So I'll be waiting. I think 2011 is going to be a good year for me. I'm growing up to become a mature and responsible adult. I wonder what good god has in store for me? I guess I will just have to wait and find out. Good luck to all and I hope everyone will have a blessed and safe new year.